why is the fucking world so fucked up? why does every fucking thing seem to go wrong and nothing go right? you can sit out all night and wish on the stars but even the most wanted wishes will never come true and while yes i suppose this is the way life goes. but i don't want it to go this way. but hey, who the fuck cares what i want? anyone? no. no one cares. not one fucking person cares. no one loves me. no one. they may think they do but in reality who could love this fucked up shitty excuse for a human being? no one. but i don't blame them. the world should just me go. burn and rot in fucking hell. that's all i'll ever be good for. i cant do shit in this life. i want out. i'm gonna die one day anyways why not just a bit early? is there a reason? why am i still here.. everyone esle has someone to make them belong.. i had someone.. but she's hardly around anymore.. and yeah.. she says she's not leaving she's just busy but my mind is telling me she's leaving. over and over and over again these fucking voices in my head are telling me to just die already because no one wants me. i want out of this life. i guess i just wait it out and see if the voices are right.. wait till my love completely leaves me behind..then just disappear like i was never even here.. just like i never even existed..