so last year i ran away from home and found myself being sexually abused by a guy i met up with, I really didnt think i thought much of it because i ran away from being abused by my mother and her friends/boyfriends and what happened with him was far less worse then what was happening when i was living with my mother. And while it hurts to think about what happened with that guy i usually worry about other abuse more... but today in the adolescence DBT group i go to weekly they were talking about how we are going on break and the date we would be returning.... turns out that is one of the days i was badly abused last year... I guess i just automatically freaked. I really dont understand why ive crashed so badly from simply hearing a date, i mean ive crashed like this before when grieving past abuse i guess, like a year after i was first abused or dates that were expecially bad. but that date i mean, i dont really know how to explain it, why did THAT date set me off so much, sure it was only a year ago and it was a real bad day but i dont know... sorry im just really confused and upset, i feel so stupid about this... when so much else has happened i freak out about the 1 abuse that happened a year ago on the one date i really shouldnt.