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I'm currently just a 15 year old girl but I've through so much more in my life than many people older than me. I've seen and done many things and I have learned and matured quickly. Even though I was a accident my mom said, and she hated me and treated me like shit, wouldn't let me be with my dad. I still smiled every day and was real happy. Me and my mom were also poor, living on the streets pretty much and starving every day. I still smiled everyday, in fact I was incredibly happy, no one at my school would've guessed, I had many friends, I'd cover up my bruises with makeup my friends gave me. I did much charity work and I loved helping people even though everything sucked for me and I wasn't receiving help for my struggle. I remember I'd cry my eyes out every night alone but I believed if I kept being so good and happy, it would all pay off. And it did.
I met this boy, first boy I'd fell in love with, first boy I'd hold hands with and kiss, and give my virginity too. He was 18 and I was 14 though, but I loved him, he was the first and only person who I told my problems too. He took me into his home and I lived happily ever after there for a year almost. His parents took care of me. But soon summer was over and the school year was starting up for us both again and it was stressful. I ran out of time then to put on my makeup and do my hair and pick out good outfits, I was more focused on my work. I didn't think that he cared that I was not getting all pretty as I usually did, but I was wrong. Next thing I know he TEXTED me a breakup text message, saying I just wasn't pretty enough and he just didn't want to be seen with me anymore, and he kicked me out of his home too. I had gotten a job and I had bought us a laptop to share, and he kept it, fucking jerk.
Took me forever to get in contact with my dad so I'd have somewhere to live. But I now live with my dad, who is great, but it still just hurts what that boy did to me, I loved him and trusted him, I thought he cared. But he didn't, and all because I just wasn't pretty enough!? I gave him my virginity and I worked so hard to get that laptop for us, and he keeps it to himself. AND after I bought him the laptop, he started going online and flirting with other girls. I'm so hurt and I just want to go die. How could I ever go love another boy? I just couldn't, I hate looking at other boys, I just see them as scumbags. I feel so dirty to, I've lost my virginity to such a evil person. I'm so fucking hurt. I've lost many of my friends, I've been incredibly violent lately and no one wants to talk to me anymore. I don't smile anymore or help people. I don't feel right anymore, that boy really destroyed my heart. I want to be dead.
so like I said, why should I keep trying to be happy and help others and keep living if its never going to end good and just end up sucking? im going to die one day anyway
I met this boy, first boy I'd fell in love with, first boy I'd hold hands with and kiss, and give my virginity too. He was 18 and I was 14 though, but I loved him, he was the first and only person who I told my problems too. He took me into his home and I lived happily ever after there for a year almost. His parents took care of me. But soon summer was over and the school year was starting up for us both again and it was stressful. I ran out of time then to put on my makeup and do my hair and pick out good outfits, I was more focused on my work. I didn't think that he cared that I was not getting all pretty as I usually did, but I was wrong. Next thing I know he TEXTED me a breakup text message, saying I just wasn't pretty enough and he just didn't want to be seen with me anymore, and he kicked me out of his home too. I had gotten a job and I had bought us a laptop to share, and he kept it, fucking jerk.
Took me forever to get in contact with my dad so I'd have somewhere to live. But I now live with my dad, who is great, but it still just hurts what that boy did to me, I loved him and trusted him, I thought he cared. But he didn't, and all because I just wasn't pretty enough!? I gave him my virginity and I worked so hard to get that laptop for us, and he keeps it to himself. AND after I bought him the laptop, he started going online and flirting with other girls. I'm so hurt and I just want to go die. How could I ever go love another boy? I just couldn't, I hate looking at other boys, I just see them as scumbags. I feel so dirty to, I've lost my virginity to such a evil person. I'm so fucking hurt. I've lost many of my friends, I've been incredibly violent lately and no one wants to talk to me anymore. I don't smile anymore or help people. I don't feel right anymore, that boy really destroyed my heart. I want to be dead.
so like I said, why should I keep trying to be happy and help others and keep living if its never going to end good and just end up sucking? im going to die one day anyway