Why am i even trying? Why does it even matter? It doesnt matter, not really.... I am already dead I am already dying.. its useless.. im useless I can be alone tonight.. The time and oppertunity is perfect now.. would it really matter? no , of course it would not.. Am i loved? No, of course im not loved it doesnt matter, just doesnt matter.. my life has meant nothing and will never mean nothing.. i cant help others... i cant help myself.. the time is perfect, just perfect tonight is a great oppertunity should i take it? yes, perhaps its best.. Best for all..