Why why why????

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Anam_Cara, Sep 11, 2008.

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  1. Anam_Cara

    Anam_Cara Well-Known Member

    why is the pain never-ending?
    why is it that no matter how hard i try i f***ng fail?
    why am i so hidious and ugly that no one one wants me?
    why do i have to be disabled, sickly and worthless?
    why does the one i love have to be out of reach?
    why do i not care if ive eaten today?
    why is it the one thing that keeps me alive, is the thing that is killing me?
    why cant my family accept that i love who i love?
    why do i live in perpetual fear of being abandoned?
    why cant i just let go and move on?
    why does everyone around me sleep soundly while i lay awake crying alone?
    why cant i stop the excruciating pain im feeling?
    why are the people who are supposed to love us the ones to hurt us worse?
    why did i not get to say goodbye to my dad?
    Why does people i trust end up betraying mine?
    why am i so cold i cant feel anything?
    why do i exist when there is no obvious reason for me to?
    why did i ever believe that love existed for me?
    why cant i get you out of my head?
    why cant i breathe without you?
    why cant i exist if you arent existing with me?
    why is my life in a crisis constantly, dont i deserve peace?

    why am i even bothering to post this?
     
  2. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Hi SJ. Don't be so hard on yourself. We love who we love, you can't really control who you are going to fall in love with. But if the person you love, doesn't love you anymore then it's time to move on. :hug:
     
  3. Anam_Cara

    Anam_Cara Well-Known Member

    the person i love DOES love me, and beyond the love of a mere friend so dont assume and jump to that conclusion next.. :mad: not being loved is NOT the issue and i am not going into much detail beyond that.. there is just a reason why we are not able to be together and lets just say that reason is me.. something to do with me, that unfortunately i can not help or change.. and it isnt my fault i was born the way i was...

    :mad: i wish i could get a soul transplant and leave this body behind.. i hate it.. ugly hidious stupid body i am in has ruined any chance i had for happiness and a relationship this life..
     
  4. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    :hug: We care about you hun and we are all here to listen :arms:
     
  5. Anam_Cara

    Anam_Cara Well-Known Member

  6. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Sorry for wrongly assuming that he doesn't love you. What's keeping you apart then? Are you unable to have kids or something?
     
  7. Anam_Cara

    Anam_Cara Well-Known Member

    Assumption forgiven... im just going to say that i was born in the wrong body, and ive caused them great pain... thats as far as i am going in a public forum... :huh:
     
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