Why do I have to go through all of this??? And especially feeling suicidal again. I have struggled with it enough this summer but it is still here. Its like I can push it aside-ignore it for about 6 weeks but then it comes back. No one takes me seriously....they think that if I went through it before and made it then I can do it again or that I'm wanting attention. I don't want to tell anyone this time because it would be devastating to have them look at me and tell me to stop being negative and just get over it.