why won't anyone listen

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Wastingecho, Jul 21, 2014.

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  1. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    i keep trying to tell them that i'm better than this that i have more experience than any other 6 people put together here

    they tell me i belong on bug detail

    because someone explicitly asked for me for a particular task i was working on the things i am (or at least was) good at

    time's up on that so they started giving me more problems to resolve that i have 0 experience in

    afraid now

    so stressed out i'm constantly on the verge of throwing up, fighting not to start sobbing at my goddamn desk

    but i have no fucking where else to go

    i know my stuff is ready

    daughter has moved away to start her own life - other will be going in a couple of weeks to do the same

    two more reasons for me to keep fighting, gone
     
  2. Unknown_111

    Unknown_111 Forum Buddy Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi Wastingecho,

    You have a purpose like me which to keep posting here and help others in their struggle. Remember without this forum and the help you have provided, it's shows the purpose of your life. I'm still here because of this forum. For that I can never be more grateful. Whilst I can connect, I will help everyone and anyone. Nobody like you should face life in loneliness.

    You posts help me get through my own crisis. For that I can never thank you enough. Ok, you are not in the right place at the moment but please keep posting as your deserve the support. I can genuinely say, if it was not you and others who have shown kindness to me, then I would not be here walking on this earth. I hope this posts helps you in current struggle and I hope it helps you see a purpose in living your life. Take care and keep posting for support.
     
  3. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    I can't help anyone any more

    Haven't slept well in months - managed 3 hours yesterday - not even sure I can think straight any more

    Better off just going where my thoughts are taking me
     
  4. Unknown_111

    Unknown_111 Forum Buddy Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi Wastingecho,

    Thank you for the reply. I can understand the sleeping disorder but I plead with you do NOT do anything as your life is important. Yes, you think life is crap but you deserve happiness in your life. There must be something in life that keeps you going. You are a wonderful person and do not think anything different. Keep posting here and take care.
     
  5. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    Nothing left to do with my life
     
  6. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    e-mail this morning tells me to report for my review tomorrow

    i was transferred without warning or consultation last year to the last place i wanted to be - told i now report to person A - who then told me to take orders from person B - who then told me to take orders from persons C and D and whoever else feels like they want to assign shit to me

    my review is being done by persons A and B who i have had virtually no direct interaction with in the last year - sick to my stomach already - want to die right now but last time i tried they found me unconscious and called EMTs - woke up and convinced them it was a bad reaction to something and got sent home - used to be a secluded area behind one of the stairwells - going to see if it's still empty and out of sight
     
  7. DrownedFishOnFire

    DrownedFishOnFire Quieta non movere

    How did the review go? Better than expected?

    Only yourself is your own worst critic. Keep that in mind when others are talking about your job performance.
     
  8. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    apparently i'm NOT my own worst critic

    i'm no good - barely worth keeping

    be fired if i don't show improvement

    i don't want to be here - not even sure how i ended up here - too old to be welcomed anywhere else

    can't breathe - heart is pounding

    sick of this job - sick of this world - sick of this life
     
  9. DrownedFishOnFire

    DrownedFishOnFire Quieta non movere

    Hey. It will be alright. What did they say to focus on in your job? If you hate it why not find a different job with less stress and is able to enjoy yourself? Is that possible?

    Youre not too old. Theres so many people in millions in our society thats unhappy with their jobs. Just letting you know youre not alone in the job issue department. I read somewhere 60% workers are unhappy and is only staying for the insurance benefits alone.
     
  10. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    no constructive advice - do better - we expect more - won't tell me what that is

    lived too long - 30 years at this job - no one wants my skill set any more - i've become obsolete, useless

    worthless
     
  11. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    been trying to work - trying to just keep going but handwriting is on the wall

    balance of coworkers in the department has steadily shifted to another country - within a year or two i figure all the work will be done overseas for a lot less than it takes to pay someone here

    rated consistent 2 out of 5 in my review - expect to be fired within the year

    will it come before thanksgiving, christmas? will it wait until the next review? does it matter?

    i get fired and i can't support my family - won't be able to keep the house, maybe the cars if i can pay off the loan in time

    have to worry about what to do with my cats - don't want to give them up but what choice will i have if struggling for a place to live and the only ones won't take pets? heart keeps breaking every time i think about it - they sit on me and look at me with their secure trusting faces and something just tears inside

    no job - no home - no health insurance - fighting for everything again day to day - i don't have the strength to fight that battle again

    life insurance would have to go - would lose company insurance anyway - still have separate but wouldn't be able to keep paying for it

    can't see a future - it's all black - i know that they don't really want me to succeed - all i'm good at anyway is failing

    don't see how i can survive

    on the day i'm asked to go into HR i'll grab my things, walk out of the office, and find someplace to die while both insurance policies are active

    will leave enough money behind for people to move somewhere else and start over

    my head keeps telling me to do it now but it doesn't quite feel like it's time yet

    but soon

    very soon
     
  12. DrownedFishOnFire

    DrownedFishOnFire Quieta non movere

    Hey if they are not giving you any advice. Theyre doing it on purpose. Why?

    To keep your confidence level down so u dont jump ship and find a better job kand/or keeping your evaluations low so they dont have to givevyou a pay raise. Its a dirty business!

    My companys purposely give one low margin rating on each evaluation so no one gets a raise. Been that way for years.
     
  13. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    doing it because after 30 years I make 3 times what an overseas employee makes so once they get rid of me they can bring in 3 to replace me

    don't care about what i can do - supposed to produce my own miracles to justify being here

    shaking for days
     
  14. DrownedFishOnFire

    DrownedFishOnFire Quieta non movere

    Its not true anymore. Overseas is getting more costly those days w taxes and nations raising their minimum wages laws. Businesses are realizing its not a win-win situation. Nations are developing taxes as soon itll just be same.

    Walgreens a pharmacial company just announced theyre moving hq to Switzerland just to save mere millions in taxes but they didnt think ahead in cost of losses when American customers switch to countless other pharmacy business as the public is getting more involved and aware of how dirty businesses are being and our money can be spent elsewhere. Its harder nowadays to escape the spotlight with all techology no businesses want the black eye and embarassment itll just cost them millions everyday the public decides to not do their patronage.
     
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