We get along great. She knows I'm into her. I don't mention it because I don't want it to be awkward or make her mad but she knows. We even take trips together for fun like an overnight stay at the casino. She has told me I'm such a great guy but not attracted to me. Why am I so ugly? I would give her everything if she saw past how ugly I am. I love spending time with her but it makes me so sad at the same time. I have no interest in ever meeting any different girls and it's been 3 years. I hate myself for how ugly and pathetic I am and I think I'm going to kill myself soon.