I wonder if you could write something down for the doctor saying that you are feeling suicidal, have anxiety and panic attacks, and are addicted, and that you can talk about symptoms and how long you've had them, but you don't want to talk about past experiences. I'm sorry to hear that, the pg13 version sounds terrible enough as it is. It's been endorsed by the World Health Organization for treating a variety of conditions. Depression, anxiety, and opioid addiction are all on the list https://www.evidencebasedacupuncture.org/who-official-position/ Western studies in the past several years indicate the following: Dopplar ultrasound shows that acupuncture increases circulation & blood flow in treated areas. Thermal imaging shows it decreases inflammation. Neuroimaging studies suggest it calms areas of the brain that register pain and activates those involved in rest and recuperation. The reasons why acupuncture works are not well understood, but the important thing to know is that acupuncture can help people to quit opioids and can treat depression and anxiety. The links in my signature have some more info Here's some info on finding affordable treatments Community clinics You get acupuncture usually in a group setting, typically costs about $20 US Clinics can be found by searching for "community acupuncture clinics in [your area]" or www.POCAcoop.com has listings for commmunity clinics, mostly in the US, 3 in Canada, 1 in Isreal, 1 in Spain www.acmac.net has listing mostly in the UK, 1 in Germany Teaching Clinics You get treated by a student (usually) under the supervision of a teacher or licensed acupuncturist (always). Treatments are in a private treatment room (usually). Prices range from zero to $50 per treatment. Teaching clinics can be found by searching for "acupuncture schools in [your area]" and then finding the clinic link or info on a school's homepage.