I am tired of this bs! I should be locked up or dead, but they want me to be a monster. They don't want to help me. They just want to ignore me, and turn me into a bigger monster. They want to build up the anger and regret, and sadness with alienation. I hate them. Just help me die! I'm tired of this stupid game. There is no point. I have no point, and the only point I had is gone. She is gone and I can never see her again. Dying is the only thing that makes sense.... It's the only thing that seems right. If there is a higher power, then I hope he takes pity on me and strikes me down with a bolt of lightening right now.