Why cant I die? I've survived 2 OD's and before I came here I tried to shoot myself and got 2 light strikes in a row. Thats shit is not supposed to happen! I should have just tried again cause when I went to the range all the ammo worked fine including the 2 rounds that failed. Then I want to try again with a different method and my father decides thats perfect time to get insomnia and sit in the lounge at 4am ffs which means he'll check on me if I spend to long in the bathroom. Why does god or mother nature or whatever fucking hate me so much? Why can't I just die? What did I do that I must suffer like this? I just want to die so I can have some peace. Is that so much to ask?