Why are people the way they are? I don't understand, so many contradictions and malevolence and just an apparent complete lack of conscience. Well, that would be easier if it was true. What is truly maddening is that people appear to have a conscience, sympathy and the ability to care that is just incompatible with their actions, their words and their "values". It's like a thought experiment I came up with while I was in Youth School and was bullied by everyone: Imagine you're held captive and tortured for no other reason than say your looks, concentration camp-style. There are two main jailors/torturers: One is a complete sociopath, he revels in causing pain for the sake of causing pain, he's the one dimensional villain from fairy tales. The other, a man who seems down to earth, but whenever he sees you, he has genuine anger in his eyes, like he truly is convinced you're the villain. He hates you, and believes what he is doing is morally the right thing to do. He has friends and family, he loves them and they love him, if you were somehow able to eavesdrop on him talking to friends and family he would sound like a really nice and fun guy, down to earth and sensible. The question is: which one of the jailers would you hate the most? EDIT: I guess I should say who I would. The second jailer. I know people read my diary on here, I dunno, maybe those people, who probably understand me to some extent now, can answer. I'd say I'd appreciate an answer, but the thing is any answer would probably be hurtful and make me angry and more depressed. Though I don't really expect answers here anymore, last time I made a thread in TUP it went completely unanswered. SF is not very active anymore, it seems.