so I started taking Zoloft again and for some reason the stress that I have been going through with my family I have been started to have those thoughts again. I am not sure why. I am taking these meds again (after several months of not taking them) to stop these feelings and urges and thoughts. I called the suicide hotline the other day because I caught myself googling suicide. My apathy for school grows and I can't help but think about ending everything.