Why does this hurt so bad Why is it playing with my head Why can't i control it Why do i have to feel like this Why can't i just push these feelings away Why!? Why!? Why!? I want to be able to control it. I need to be able to control it. Its not that it hurts its that i feel like i have no control over it. Everything in my life i have no control over. But i want to be able to control feelings. Control my emotions about my life, my future, people. I need to feel in control myself. If i don't then all it will cause is hurt. More hurt that i have to go through.