You do not need to apologize on this site. Vent or rant away.......
You tried to end it, but it is not your time yet.
I may not know you personally well, though I know people will miss you if you are not here. I feel the same way--I have tons of relatives, now showing no compassion or understanding, due to having no education. I have to forgive them for rejecting me, only cuz I do not want the burden of holding anger for a long time. I don't want people around me that do not care for others and are very judgemental. :poke:
Being suicidal is the worst thing in the world, next to depression and manic, but it makes you have empathy. You are important enough to be alive, YOU
really are. Hard to believe? right, I know. You gotta get to the bottom of the pain.
later-