Why do I have this life sentence? What is about me thats so very wrong? I guess its just not meant to be. I honestly thought something wonderful could develop...but I was deluding myself as usual. Every attempt I make to get close to someone ends in failure, youve all seen me fuck up time and time again before your very eyes. What is about me that turns people away? Do I have a face only a mother could love? Is it because im a fat, lazy bastard, thats achieved fuck all in his life? Is it because im not always the life of the party? Is it because I like to dirty talk at times and flirt? Its just a bit of fun isnt it? Is it because I have no future? Is it because I have no money? Is it because im not the most creative spirit around? Is it because im boring you? Is it because I despise myself so very much? Doesnt everyone? When will I ever accept nobody would ever want to be with me... I just need to accept that, and look forward to a life without love. OR I just need to accept that, and take my own life. Difficult decision isnt it? A life without love OR A life where I could enjoy most things, except the most important thing of all Ive heard people say so many positive things about me on this forum, but its all fucking lies...Why do you say that??? Are you trying to make me think theres hope, when there is no hope...all to save my prescious, pathetic little life. All I want is love...but it seems Im condemned to live a life without it. The more I think about it, the more I realise, that the price for life is too costly to bare.