Relapse. I joined this site today. Read a couple threads. Made a couple posts. And the more i read about cutting, and thought about how i was "over" it, how i was proud i quit, and talked aboutit in the past tense. Read about it. I missed it. I was resisting for a really long time. Months. See, i was never an every day, deep cutter. Not a "serious" cutter. I was feeling depressed for a very long time. And I thought it would never go away. I missed it. I missed how it felt. I missed the clear, focused, content way my mind is right now. But not really. Cause its not enough. Not even close. cause i got caught before, so i tried to hide it. tried doing it on my toe, between my fingers. just a little. but it didnt work. so i came back to my favorite place. my ankle. the room smells like blood. I'm not sure why im telling my most private thoughts to strangers. but after reading, it feels like i know you, and you understand me more than most people. The guilt and regret is already taking away the cutting high. So my only problem now..how am i going to hide it, and how am i going to do it again, without getting caught.