why?

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by bloodysunday, Aug 7, 2007.

  1. bloodysunday

    bloodysunday Well-Known Member

    Why now?

    Why do this to me?

    Why now?

    I was settled, I was comfortable

    Now I want to finish this vodka munch all these pills and say "fuck off you bastards. I hate you all"

    Instead, I will scream

    AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH:cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry:
     
  2. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    What happened:eek:hmy:
     
  3. bloodysunday

    bloodysunday Well-Known Member

    Everything!
     
  4. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Have had a fair few times like that hun :hug:
     
  5. The_Discarded

    The_Discarded Staff Alumni

    :sad: Damn. I hear ya. 'Everything' sucks...


    (Here if you need to talk. :hug: )
     
  6. bloodysunday

    bloodysunday Well-Known Member

    I am tired of the "fair few times" being every friggin day. I am fed up of the blame always falling on my shoulders. I am tired of having to be the "strong one" that everyone turns to. Everyone expects me to have the answers, everyone expects me to cope.. Just because.

    Well to hell with it. I AM NOT COPING
     
  7. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Then tell em. Been in exactly the same situation (over and over again actually:blink:) finally they broke the camels back with one too many straws and I let it all out. The result was amazing..everyone got off my back.
    Didn't like the shocked looks overly much tho :sad:
     
  8. bloodysunday

    bloodysunday Well-Known Member

    If I was to do that, the family would crumble. I love um too much to do that to um
     
  9. The_Discarded

    The_Discarded Staff Alumni

    I'm sorry it's like that.

    I know how tough it is. It's suffocating, exhausting, just all-around terrible to have everyone leaning on you.

    >.< But you'll have to do something.

    If you keep it all in you'll hurt 'em in the long run anyway.

    And you can't be all there for them when you're feeling this overwhelmed yourself. Can you just let them know, ever-so-subtly, that you're not dealing well?

    Many :hug:s to you.
     
  10. bloodysunday

    bloodysunday Well-Known Member

    Nope. It aint just that. Tat is merely the tip of the iceburgh. What lies beneth is far far worse
     
  11. bloodysunday

    bloodysunday Well-Known Member

    Sorry, *that


    Besides, I feel weak now. eyes struggling. Boby numb.
     
  12. The_Discarded

    The_Discarded Staff Alumni

    damn, i feel your pain...

    will sleep help any? and if so, can you? i know sleep's no where near the cure of the earth, but sometimes it's pretty helpful.
     
  13. bloodysunday

    bloodysunday Well-Known Member

    That didn't work, the vodka, the pills. I'm still fuckin here

    AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
     
  14. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Good :hug:
     
  15. bloodysunday

    bloodysunday Well-Known Member

    it is NOT good ! !
     
  16. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Yes it is...cos THIS WILL PASS....send me pm if you need to talk :hug:
     
  17. bloodysunday

    bloodysunday Well-Known Member

    When is it going to pass Einstein?

    This has been getting steadily worse for the last 16 years. I see nothing changing. Only it getting worse

    So I know you are wrong
     
  18. bloodysunday

    bloodysunday Well-Known Member

    What the hell did I do?

    Why do you treat me this way?

    I gave you all of me

    My body grows weak. I am dying inside slowly.