WHY CANT I JUST LET GO?! WHY DO I STILL HANG ON?! WHY DO I LIE TO MYSELF I still love her......i know that because i kept a promise to her that made me look liek the biggest chicken shit ever............. I have dreams over and over about her and i wake up in pain and with marks all over my body like i was hurtting myself and i AM IN MY DREAMS!! i cut and hurt myself because it never works out in my dreams and my dreams are so real i think its really happening and ive got a big cut on my chest were i stabbed myself in one of my dreams and ive got ones on my back where i got attacked by a load of people in my dream! OH WHY!!! I JUST WANT TO FORGET AND I CAN ONLY BLAME MY BEST FRIEND BECAUSE OF HIS ACTIONS!!! WHAT AN IDIOT!