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  1. lil-sis-one-of-two

    lil-sis-one-of-two Well-Known Member

    What the fucking hell is wrong with me, why am I still here.

    I had it all planned,now I am going to have to go through another day in hell.
    I am at work again, I hate work, I am not sure why i even come. Its not because I dont like my work or the people I work with, I just hate everything about my life and this is part of it.

    I just want to go now I am ready, what the hell is stopping me.

    I cant take this pain anymore, I have tried I really have. I have tried the drugs, the crisis team and I am still waiting for the councilor to bloody ring me (SHows how much see care)

    I am not even sure why I am writing this, there is so much going on inside me.

    I cut this morning, it felt so good i wish that feeling would last forever but it only lasted for about 5 minutes then I can crashing back down to hell.

    I seem to be ranting abit now so I will end it here.
    Please dont feel the need to reply to this, I know I am beyond help.
    Sorry for wasting your time if you have read it.

    I love you all and I am sorry.

    (I hope you never read this but if you do, you are partly to blame for this, you said you love me and ypu would protect me from him but you are not you have run away like the spoilt brat you are, I never thought I could love someone and hate them at the same time but I do you!)
  2. lil-sis-one-of-two

    lil-sis-one-of-two Well-Known Member

    Is anybody there, I am going through hell!
  3. jonstark

    jonstark Well-Known Member

    :sad: :hug:
    We do love you and you are not wasting our time!
  4. lil-sis-one-of-two

    lil-sis-one-of-two Well-Known Member

    Someone plase take me away from this, I can't take it.

    I need tio know what to do, I am cutting but it isnt helping.

    Nothing is helping.

    I have pills, I want to take them, they are in my bag.
  5. jonstark

    jonstark Well-Known Member

    Please try to go to sleep naturally. Maybe you'll be better tomorrow.
    You are not completely alone. You have the people here!

    Please get better :hug:.
  6. lil-sis-one-of-two

    lil-sis-one-of-two Well-Known Member

    Ok well, I would like to thank everyone for your help in the last month.
    You are all amazing people.

    It is all too much now.

    More and more stuff is going wrong.

    I cant get batter I am beyond help.

    See you all, good luck
  7. jonstark

    jonstark Well-Known Member

    What are you planning to do?
  8. lil-sis-one-of-two

    lil-sis-one-of-two Well-Known Member

    We cant discuss methods on here, but i need to go I cant stay here anymore, I dont know why I am even replying to this.

    I am scared the pills wont work, I dont want to live
  9. jonstark

    jonstark Well-Known Member

    You shouldn't take too many pills.
    Maybe you could call an emergency line instead!
  10. Fishman

    Fishman Guest

    we do care about you!
  11. lil-sis-one-of-two

    lil-sis-one-of-two Well-Known Member

    I don't care about myself.
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