I don't understand why life is so difficult for me, I can't seem to get anything right. I've got to go to court cause I got angry, I lost my job cause I made a mistake, I get text messages from a payphone calling me fat and ugly and a whore. I've lost all my friends. "So called Friends" I failed at suicide not to long ago by taking fourty valium. But now I'm so wanting to end it. I'm so sick of feeling this way. Please help.