what did i ever do to make you hurt me so much sue, i was always the man you wanted me to be, i loved you like no other and had the love and pride in your girls as a father would even though they werent mine. now look at where i am and what you have done to me. while you are happy and living the life you want, with all your friends, your family and him i am left with a half life, a pale empty shadow of who i was. the plan you hatched to destroy me and my life has worked, you should be really proud of yourself. do you want to know what my day is like? i get up feeling ashamed and embarrassed that i am still here, i go to work like a zombie, not talking to anyone unless i have to, just treading water till i can leave, i get home and drink cheap booze to try and blot out the pain and try to find the courage to end this pitifull excuse of a life. each day i cut to feel the pain i deserve. there is no joy in my life, no future to cling onto, nothing that tells me to hang on, where are my friends? but i hope you are happy now, soon you will be free of my memory. you knew who i was, now let me tell you who i am now. my name is andy and i seek death with open arms.