First Michelle, and now Susan too? I know where this ends. DOn't wanna let it go that way. Need to talk to camhs, but can tell them anyway. Can't think proaperly, not sure what'll happen if she gets any worse. I think she was on tyhe egde of doing it last night, but then I colden't talk to her proaperly cos the staff wanted her off the phone. So I jsut had my fucking resperidone and got fucked up by it again, and again earllier. I have to see nick later, I need to be ok by then.