why me? why do bad things happen to me? Why did mom die? Why did dad die? Why is Scott wanting to commit suicide? Why am I? What makes me want to be dead? or better yet why do I have the dark morbid thoughts of suicide and hurting myself? Y do i continually think of this: Will i be denied? tourniquet. My suicide? why do i think these things?Why do i have so much anger, self hatred and no confidence in myself? I hate myself more than i hate then i could ever hate the world. Why wont ppl just let me die or better yet help me die?