why bother. not even a question. theres so many answers, which can you believe? none. just yourself. im tired of it. sick of "just hold on." through with "it'll get better." so what if it does? who cares. better sooner than later right? impatience is a good thing according to samsungs new advert and im inclined to agree. especially concerning this. all i do is worthless, meaning im worthless. a man is judged by his actions. im starting to lose control. the meds havent yet kicked in, but they want to hurry. i can do much worse to myself than end it... but i dont want that scenario. "better dead than red?" in my case, yes.