First post here, I find it helps me for only a little bit. This is the second forum I have tried anyway. I find it funny in a way, how i am trying to delay this, but at the end of the day when I look into my barrel or down the tube that will end my life I feel no fear, no regret, but yet I am still alive. In any case, I have my date at hand, and I am merely ignored at the other site. Maybe its me, maybe its how I was shaped in this world. I live with roomates for now, about to be homeless due to bills I am having trouble paying. No family, no real friends at all..Single..dont want to get close to feel love again. It will only hurt more and more, but with the end so close it means little I guess.. I dont know what to say...Why ask for help when I deserve nothing? And nothing is the way..