What the hell did I do to make everybody hate me so damn much? All I ever do is try to be a good person, to help people. But it’s never enough, all they ever want from me is more, and when I can’t give them more they just leave me. I’m so sick and freaking tired of being alone. Why is it that no matter how hard I try to make things better, they never get any better? I just want to crawl into a hole. They call me weak; they all treat me like dirt then laugh when I cry. I just don’t think I can deal with it anymore; I just want to give up, to make it all go away. But I’m too much of a coward to act on it, to tell them how much I’m hurting. Even if I do they won’t listen, nobody ever listens. I know this isn’t making much sense, but I’m trying to, my head is spinning. Instead of trying to get to know me, of talking to me, they send me to an institution; pump me full of meds. I can’t deal with it; I don’t want to deal with it. People call me weak; they think I’m just some pathetic little ****** emo boy, but I’m a human being damn it. I just want ONE friend, ONE person to talk to. I guess its just a pipe dream, I’m so damn pathetic, I have CONVERSATIONS with a FUCKING VOICE in my HEAD. I don’t think I can type much more; I’m kinda fading in and out right now. I just needed to vent, I don’t really care if nobody listens, I’m used to it by now.