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Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by total eclipse, Mar 19, 2010.

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  1. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    i just want the sadness to go away
    no matter how hard i try
    no matter what i say
    people stiil get mad at me
    i don't care i don't
    i just need a place to sleep
    away from the turmoil
    inside
    away so no more will i have to hidr
    i didn't want to hurt anyone
    just wanted to be strong
    now somehow it turned out wrong
    god god i want to be gone
    i wish i could be dead
    then i would not have to deal
    with all the thought in my head
    i want out i need out im sorry for everything
    stupid me im sorry
     
  2. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    i'm sorry violet

    i know this song, we could probably harmonize

    who do you think you've hurt?

    maybe i can help
     
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    i am not going there no more i don't want to hurt anyone it is better forme to stay quiet oh god i need to stop letting others hurt me i need to stop letting the words hurt me i don't hate anyone i just wish i didn't post anything i should know better by now keep my thoughts and emotions to myself no more posting no more.
     
  4. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    i think you need to keep posting violet - when you're ready

    you know we all care here

    in the meantime if you want to just talk, PM me
     
  5. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I know this place is safe im okay here im okay here god noone hurts me here im okay here im okay im okay im okay im okay the only person i hate is me that it
     
  6. *sparkle*

    *sparkle* Staff Alumni

    violet :hug: here if you need :hug:
     
  7. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    yes, you're safe here

    is there anything close at hand that can calm you down?

    glass of water or a snack or something? maybe some music?
     
  8. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    took a drive actually sorry triggers are bad lately i am calm now
     
  9. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hey Violet I know your story and I feel for you!! You know the members here care!! I hope you can regain your strength..You have a big heart and it seems that it gets stepped on all the time..I'm here for you...PM me anytime!!:eek:ld:
     
  10. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Thanks guys sometimes i am just weak thats all too dam sensitive im alright now breathing slow breaths the pain has passed again dam pain wish it would just go away and stay away. thanks for your support Stranger and everyone :i'm sorry: try to be stronger for now on.
     
  11. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    I'm sorry you are in such pain Violet...
    I hope you'll keep posting cos I think your posts are helpful.....
    I'm glad you have calmed a bit....
    I care...HUGS
     
  12. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hey thanks i hope you are doing better as well take care
     
  13. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I pick myself up again and again
    just to be knocked down by the things that she says
    i try to stay strong in control of things
    set line boundaries she knows none of these things
    i am told to give her what she needs
    or she will seek in dangerously
    i don't want to be apart of any of this
    oh god please send her healing
    send her strength from above
    let her see that she just needs love
    not all this poison she puts inside
    god i just need somewhere to run to hide
    i am dying inside
    but thats not allowed
    i have to be strong
    for her somehow somehow but HOW!
     
  14. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

  15. yeh.

    yeh. Well-Known Member

    How to be strong for someone?
    We're told we 'harden' up, and our tenderness occult
    But what is love then?
    Can i heal all the suffering in the world?
    I cannot
    Can i stop my suffering? Yes
    By Comprehension
     
  16. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    No i don't think one suffering ever stops really
     
  17. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    :arms: sorry all i got left
     
  18. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    that is more then enough thanks carla:hugtackles:
     
  19. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    :hug:
     
  20. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    :hugtackles: Thanks for all the kindness i am stronger today thank you I hope all your pain eases as well and that your supports keep you strong take care
     
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