hello. new member here. I'm not quite sure why I decided to join this forum. perhaps I will learn more about myself this way. the thoughts come almost every day....thoughts of suicide. this has been an ongoing situation for over a year now. ironic to be posting this at an internet forum as the internet itself contributes to despair. ah yes, the internet. Myspace, which I would NEVER join has successfully demeaned the word friend. why just by joining up your imagined popularity can soar!! yes, stick with it and you too could acquire45,652 "friends". all of them repeating the current buzzwords and cliches of the day. NO...you can't. Friendship is earned. it births in trust and time and not with a click of the mouse. to each his own. I see no problem if one decides to off himself, I really don't. I'm not looking for reasons as to why suicide is a "bad idea".