I just checked, and I can't believe I joined this forum 5 years ago and only posted twice. i guess I am anti social, even online. Well anyways, I've been having a really hard time for the last couple of months, just got fed up late one night in March wrote a long letter and emailed it. To make a long story short I took an overdose the next thing I know cops are knocking at my door but i refused to open, landlord was called they busted my room door dragged me from apartment in handcufs. The police treated me like garbage, I had the feeling they felt like i was wasting their time. Was in hospital for almost 2 weeks involuntary. It was a horrible experience, and its still affecting me, flashbacks of the arrrest (counselor tried to tell me i wasn't arrested) and being put in restraint, felt like a trapped and caged animal. I came out worst than I did going in.