I feel as though I want to end it ...... or, to be more honest, like it would be good to end it ..... not that I really want to .... :unsure: I picture myself doing it .... the final act as it were .... it would be so easy.
I feel as though I do not belong in life ..... I do not need people, yet I know I do - I feel sad whenever I leave here for the night .... I feel as though I have lost my support(even though all I have to do is turn the computer back on)....
I'm not sure how long I've been feeling like this on and off for ..... a while I suppose - it's just manifested itself over the weekend :unsure:
I think I'll be fine in the daytime, just the evening / nighttime that it gets too much .......
My family noticed I was down ...... or quiet, rather, last night. Asked me if I was OK etc - said that they loved me ..... which I guess deep down I am grateful for ..... but I cannot tell them how I am feeling again ....
I am struggling. It would be so easy to die ......... I am not sure what to do.
I know the right thing to do - to stay here .... but, as we know, it's not easy to be positive when one is feeling very very low. I know how hard it would be to die - and that I am sure I will not, but even the fact the thoughts are there, are warning bells ....
I am so grateful for the people here ...... so grateful for meeting friends over this site..... Moonstar .... she's truly great, and radiates warmth and cares for everyone even when she isn't doing so great .... Beret, who's so supportive of everyone she meets and always has a good word and hug to say when you're feeling low ..... Bunny, who's always there to lend a shoulder and a hug no matter what she's going through .....
I know I have missed out loads of people .... I'm sorry for that .....
Thank you all for being here ....... Love ya all :grouphug:
I feel as though I do not belong in life ..... I do not need people, yet I know I do - I feel sad whenever I leave here for the night .... I feel as though I have lost my support(even though all I have to do is turn the computer back on)....
I'm not sure how long I've been feeling like this on and off for ..... a while I suppose - it's just manifested itself over the weekend :unsure:
I think I'll be fine in the daytime, just the evening / nighttime that it gets too much .......
My family noticed I was down ...... or quiet, rather, last night. Asked me if I was OK etc - said that they loved me ..... which I guess deep down I am grateful for ..... but I cannot tell them how I am feeling again ....
I am struggling. It would be so easy to die ......... I am not sure what to do.
I know the right thing to do - to stay here .... but, as we know, it's not easy to be positive when one is feeling very very low. I know how hard it would be to die - and that I am sure I will not, but even the fact the thoughts are there, are warning bells ....
I am so grateful for the people here ...... so grateful for meeting friends over this site..... Moonstar .... she's truly great, and radiates warmth and cares for everyone even when she isn't doing so great .... Beret, who's so supportive of everyone she meets and always has a good word and hug to say when you're feeling low ..... Bunny, who's always there to lend a shoulder and a hug no matter what she's going through .....
I know I have missed out loads of people .... I'm sorry for that .....
Thank you all for being here ....... Love ya all :grouphug: