Why do we consider suicide? Is it a good excuse to get out or is it just an easier way of dealing with difficult times. I dont like to admit it but the sad thing is that yes i have considered it it is still on my mind from time to time but i always talk myself out of it. i had a wonderful fiance but we have just split up and i know ask myself what have i got to live for now? We done everything together and we have so many enjoyable memories and i cant go anywhere or do anything without these memories being constantly being in my head. I was just told that she doesnt want to be with me anymore but i just cant live my live without her shes the most importand person to me in the world and without her my whole world is at a standstill. she made it revolve. I have said to her that we can come back from our split up but she doesnt believe it i am worried that she is just making me hang on so that way am having a bit of false hope for a few days longer? At the minute we are trying to get things back on track but i am so scared that she doesnt want to be with me. i thought if i was to go then she wont have to make her mind up weather to be with me or not. I just look at her and see my future and know am looking at a river which could easily take my life.