Why did I have to make mistakes when I was younger and why do people have to be so vindictive... I'm not perfect but I recognized my mistakes and wanted to do right but by trying to do the right thing I just got screwed over.. I was stupid for trusting people, when they didn't have noble motives. I should have gone with my gut instinct with this dangerous woman and other people but no I was just sucked into her trap due to my vulnerabilities. I should have gone with my gut instinct the night I got set up by a guy I hadn't seen in a few years and was never really friends with. Yet he was friends with people who hated me and wanted revenge. In a sense I was their scapegoat. Why couldn't certain people have just left me alone it saddens me to think what my life would have been like now if I was just left alone or treated kindly. I was psychically abused prior to that revenge attack on me so it made the whole attack that much worse.... It reminds me of a quote. Men are more prone to revenge injuries the requite kindness. Some people actually see being nice or kindness as a weakness it's something they can exploit All I wanted was a woman I could treat right and she would love me back and I could have a bit of a normal life....... But I guess that was too much to ask from this cruel world... People just want to feel wanted, loved and have some affection and intimacy. I should have done lots of things different and I recognize my mistakes but it's like wow why did things have to turn out like this. I don't want to go in specific detail but it's fucked I'd wish no one in my place. I'm reminded of this song... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHpMtWtgUvc "In his life he's filled with all of these good intentions, he's left a lot of things he'd rather not mention" People can be so ignorant and cruel, they like to hate or blame others so they can feel superior.