Why can't I just be normal? Why do I put everyone through this? I'm such a coward, I know I can't and won't go through with it. But I just wish I were dead right now. I haven't felt like this in a long time, but somehow I know that I can't go on living this huge fucking lie anymore. Sure, there's this forum, but I have no-one here in person. I have nothing. I have nowhere to go. I have nothing else but this lie of a life. I just wish someone could help me. I feel so fucking alone.