And this is why I don't like medication. When side effects make my already existing asthma worse and cause me to not breathe in the middle of a race, make me lightheaded for no apparent reason and generally make me feel like shit at the absolute worse of timing, I struggle to take the positive effects seriously. I would rather have a hard time paying attention in class and actually have to try to keep my grades up, then make running races a living hell at times and at times completely suck the joy out of what I love to do. Sometimes the hard way is the only way, medication doesn't make me better, it simply treats the symptoms, for both physical or mental illnesses. When its a emergency and I need immediate stabilization, medication is fine. But after I'm stable, my doctor should be taking me off medication, not adding more and increasing doses. I hate depending on chemical substances to survive or function, I don't see how that helps me, the core problem remains untouched, I would rather suffer in the short-term and learn and improve rather than spend the rest of my life consuming crazy pills and legal stimulants.