I'm not asking for people to post methods.... I know that's against your precious "rules." But finding a suitable, painfree, non-suffering way to end my hell shouldn't be this difficult. Everytime I think I find a new option.... a new hope..... something always comes up to burst my bubble. All I want is to not exist anymore, to finally rest in peace. Terminating my miserable existence in painless, traumaticless fashion shouldn't be this difficult.