I am going to drink tomorrow.
But I am good with myself : I took a bottle of 200ml of champain to celebrate the end of the school year pressure and report cards done
and a 50ml bottle of liquor just to have the unpleasure to show myself how week I am.
Oh dear - If you feel so depressed about coming back home, you may want to consider separation for a while and see how you feel then?
I suppose that your possible job opportunity away from where you are now would serve this purpose as well?
I don’t know which way is easier for you - everything new including your family situation and job or one thing at a time like separation without having to worry about your job? I remember that you are doing well with your present job? I just want to remind you that you may want to avoid getting into another kind of stressful situation…just a reminder