Well Jesus commited suicide,waiting in gethsemane knowing that he would be arrested and crucified, is no different than standing on a railway line and waiting for the train?????????Jesus had a purpose he did not commit suiced he gave his life so we may be saved. What would your purpose be to end your life to relieve your own pain ?so no it would not be the same His was an unshelfish act of love If it was good enough for the son of god, why should i ask for forgiveness.
Why arn't we asking, should we forgive god, for all the pain and suffering that mankind has endured throughout time.This is a deception that has been created that God is responsable for all the suffering He is not. It is the devil who causes bad things and suffering to happen and yes God allowes them so we can forget about the unimportant things in life and start searching for the important things, Him. if everything is going good why should we be searching for something better.Once we have found Him he continious to allow suffering as it forms our caracter and refines us it gives us wisdom understanding and compasion so we may help others .
I have lived a long and miserable life, i don't blame god for it, but i won't apologies for my actions, unless he wants to take some responsibility.
He can't play the good shephard and sit idly by why people suffer, and then be surprise when we choose to leave this life.God is not just sitting by idly He sees the suffering and he feels the pain and that emptiness that search for meaning inside you is him promting you to find him.Remeber He is a God of love He gave us free will He will never force treaten or trick you to come to him you need to take the first step toward Him and you will be amazed at how much he can help
If god is all knowning then he knows that i am a good person, who made poor choices, and has tried soo hard to cope, but just can't.