I ended up cutting myself after about 7 months of not doing it. Actually, that was only one cut and pretty impulsive. It has been probably more than a year since I cut myself this much. I used to do it more often, and it would usually coincide with me being drunk. But I was stone sober last night and still did it. Usually I would find ways to distract myself when I am feeling that upset, but this time seemed different for some reason. And I can't throw my blades away....I just can't bring myself to do it. Will I always have this lurking in the back of my mind, or will I be able to overcome it? If you were able to, how did you do it?