Is it possible for some human beings never to be loved, admired, fancied and even liked throughout their whole lives? I feel this is possible because it's happening to me. I have had two loves and many crushes. The first love when horrifically wrong. The second, was even worse. I was mistreated and abused and heart broken over and over again. I then began having crushes on people I knew, every single one of them didn't like me back. None of them. I asked them all out, they all refused and called me revolting. I recently met someone who I could not for the life of me stop staring at. I admired them beyond words and once I found out recently that they will be leaving and no longer in my life, I broke down in tears and was in tears for hours upon hours for I have never admired anyone as much as this. I desperately got in contact with this person who then found me weird and ignored me and basically dislike me already. I've never been loved. No one has ever admired me. Please, don't say 'someone could of loved you and not told you." Trust me, I pick up on things, no one has ever told me anything, no one has ever been affectionate with me or acted different around me. Ever. Why can't I be loved? People call me pretty all the time, call me good looking. Is there something wrong with me? Was I born broken? Was I not meant to be born? If I wasn't, everyone would be happy, including my mother who wants to be living elsewhere but cannot because of me. I love people so much, I have so much love to share, yet no one ever wants me. I wish I was dead. Please, what can I do? Why are some people always admired and others never at all? I know some of the most crueliest, ugliest people and yet they have someone head over heels in love with them. I know it's not about looks but these people are down right evil to anyone, including those that love them. Please help me!