I second on total eclipse.
I mean, what is normal. What may seem normal to you, can't always be normal for someone else and what may seem normal to someone else, can't always be normal for you.
We all have problems, at least one problem. Some have big problems and some have minor/ not so important problems. Nevertheless everyone has problem/s, therefore no one is normal and perfect. We are all different and that's what makes us unique.
Finding the reason for our sadness is the most important thing. Once we find that reason, the thing, the 'stuff in the basement' that is making us so sad and down, then we can start treating it.
Have you ever tried seeing different doctors, you know not every doctor is the same and not every doctor knows everything. Once you find that doctor, who is going to give you the right meds and point you to right therapies, then you will start feeling better and once again find a reason/will to live.
Always remember that your loved ones know that you don't mean to hurt them and that they will be there for you and help you if you ask them.
Also remeber to never give up or stop searching for a solution to your problem/s, you are stronger than you think.
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"It always seems impossible, until it's done."
(Nelson Mandela)
"Remember to keep yourself alive, there is nothing more important than that!"
(Afeni Shakur)