Will i ever get over it

Discussion in 'Family, Friends and Relationships' started by thepainwithin, Jan 10, 2013.

  1. thepainwithin

    thepainwithin Well-Known Member

    I cant stop thinking about it. I did it with a guy. I've always been into .. weird things.. and I've always been lucky enough to have a girlfriend that was cool with it. But after we broke up, I haven't had sex with a girl in 2 years, I tried it with a guy. It wasn't the same. I admit I watch porn, a habit I'm trying to break, and guys doing girls and transexuals even are hot, but REAL guys are gross. I'm not physically attracted attracted at all, it's mostly just the... junk...

    I in no way want a relationship with a guy. I've thought before I was bi-sexual and I was ok with it, but now it's different because it happened. I would never do it again.

    Will I ever get over it? It'd been 1.5 years since my last time with a girl. I will wait to find a girlfriend before that happens again. Do I sound like I'm in denial? Because I don't think so.

    I just hope it's not awkward to be around my family. It's already kind of awkward to be around my friend. I won't be until March. Maybe I just need therapy? I think it's mostly just not having a social life. I'm on a college campus surrounded by pretty girls and I don't have the personality anymore to get close to one.

    Sorry I know I've posted something like this elsewhere but I thought I might get some new responses
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    You can talk to a therapist it may help you hun with your self image Talk to a sex therapist but i do believe in time you will not forget it hun but understand that you were just experimenting and learned that you did not enjoy it at all so now you know so now time move forward ok hugs