I am so tired of living. People don't have to justify wanting a new pair of shoes or what to have for dinner so why do I have to justify wanting to die? I am living hour by hour, a day is just too much at the moment. Part of me thinks I should just get a grip & get on with it. But I know it's not that simple, if it was I would have done it a long time ago. I need help but people do not have magic wands, they can't fix what they don't know. I can't fix what I don't know. And to be honest I don't want to be 'fixed' anymore, I just want to slip away. I have succeeded in shutting myself off completely, from here & in real life. I feel like I'm sat on the edge waiting for something to come along & tip me over. I know it won't be long, if you look hard enough you'll always find something. The only thing holding me back right now is the fear of failing.