i was thinking the other day, and i noticed how every year things get more miserable, more difficult, and more unbearablel. everyone always says when your younger and are upset or angry about something, "oh you think you have it bad now wait till you get older". so really if life only gets harder and only gets worse and more miserable, really what is the point? 'cause so far my life is just going down and down and down and everything has just been getting worse my entire life, every year things get worse. i just dont want to do anything anymore, i just feel like i want to sleep and never wake up. Today my mom told me that everything in her life that has gone wrong is because of me, and that she hates me and doesnt care if i've sliced my wrist open before. i dont have anyone who would even notice if i suddenly dissappeared except when i didnt show up for work. and then they would probably just be pissed that i wasnt there to cover my shift. they wouldnt be worried. so exactly why shouldnt i kill myself? anyone got a good reason that isint religious 'cause i gave up on "god" a long time ago, and isint bullshit, im willing to listen.