spent the weekend alone and only just made it thru it, had moments of pure despair and just broke down. no one to talk to, no one to comfort me in my time of need. just wanted to vanish, run away and hide but i can't get away from my thoughts. so lonely, so alone. i have done nothing wrong yet i am the one to suffer, how can someone who has loved me so greatly just stop in a matter of weeks when everything was so good and she admits it was, i just don't understand. so tired of trying to be normal, yet i can't show how i feel without hurting her girls who are innocent. stuck between a rock and a hard place. will things get better? is there hope for my future? very hard to see this now and i may never will. such a low point right now.