I have been raped. After everything I've already been through, I thought that enough bad stuff had already happened to me. Apparently I was wrong. I don't know if I can ever be the same again. I feel like my life is over now, and all I'll ever feel now is this crippling pain. I went to the police last night, but they didn't have a female doctor to see me. They can't get my medical done until tomorrow morning. I don't want to go that long without a shower. I need to clean myself, wash off anything that is left of him. I feel disgusting. Will this ever get better? I can't function. It just goes round and round in my head, constantly. I keep re-living it, over and over. I can't stand to touch my partner, of anyone for that matter. I will only link little fingers with her, that's all I can cope with. I am scared of her. Scared of everyone. I hate being alone with anyone... even with her. I am worried that this will happen again. Even that she might try to.. fucking hell. I don't know how to cope with this. I feel like I am broken now. Tainted. I don't feel like life will ever be the same again. I hate myself.