Not here to make friends or get commiseration. I have decided to take my leave and feel very peaceful about my decision. Funny, all of my adult life, all I wanted was peace and it looks like the only way I'm going to get it, is if I take matters into my own hands. I have made more than my share of bad decisions in my life, and have paid dearly for them. I finally get to a point where I feel like I have some control and then things hit the shitter and I cannot cope. I'm being pulled in too many directions by too many people's problems and I can't fix everyone, there is no light at the end of the tunnel, but I digress...my question is; I have <edit methods...Terry> Will that put me to sleep and eventually stop my heart, or will I just puke and wind up with brain damage or something?