I live in a very toxic environment(I don't mean natural environment or ecosystem). I mean the people and society surrounding me i.e. my neigbours, my office, my town. Everywhere I go, people always humiliated and harass me.People always treated me badly wherever I go (neigbours,office,shops,market etc.). It seems that everyone hates me(for reasons known to them).I don't know the reason why they hate me. It doesn't matter how I behave or what I do, people just hate me. I am also severely misunderstood. As a result, I have intense hatred towards other people and society.The only people who loves me are my mother and sister. Apart from them , no one treated me with kind and love. I haven't met all the people in the world. So I can't conclude that the entire 7 billion or more people in the world are same and they will also hate me. But the few thousands I have met in my life are very harsh and unkind. It seems like society sees me as someone who is mentally ill,insane, socially misfit , introvert, unkind, socially rejected etc etc.
But after coming to SF, my attitude towards the world (society) changes. I find here that there are other people in the world who are having their own suffering and difficulties in life (though different from me), people who thinks that they are not meant for this world just like me.The people in SF seem to be very kind and loving. Is it because I am meeting them virtually on online platform. Will they behave the same in real life. Will they treat me with kind and love. I wonder and want to ask will any of you love me if we happens to meet in real life.
But after coming to SF, my attitude towards the world (society) changes. I find here that there are other people in the world who are having their own suffering and difficulties in life (though different from me), people who thinks that they are not meant for this world just like me.The people in SF seem to be very kind and loving. Is it because I am meeting them virtually on online platform. Will they behave the same in real life. Will they treat me with kind and love. I wonder and want to ask will any of you love me if we happens to meet in real life.