Hello. I found this website and I hope someone here will listen or maybe help a little. I have had depression and anxiety disorder for at least 26 years. I haven't had any mental health care in a long time because I don't have insurance (yet). Three and a half months ago my boss closed his business and moved away. I moved with my spouse and child back to my home state because there were supposed to be more jobs here. He (my spouse) was employed within five weeks. I keep trying but can't get anyone to hire me. I don't drive, so I'm stuck at home, isolated and alone, caring for a 4 1/2 year old daughter who would rather have her daddy. It is extremely difficult for me to get around to interviews, and I am running out of money for cabs and day care. I am quickly losing any hope that I can find a job. If I can't get a job, I have no chance of getting better. I have to be able to be useful. I am educated, qualified, hard-working. And yet, I keep getting turned down for stupid reasons ("not the right personality", "wrong fit"). My family would be better off without me. If I knew how to kill myself in a way that is both accessible to me and that I really thought would work, I would. Thank you.