Everything tells me that I should end it. I have never tried to end it. Did get drunk one night a few years ago but passed out be for I got around to doing anything. I don't work. I have not had a relationship since I was 18. I have lived alone since I was 20. Am 34 now. I walk with a limp and I have a spin that's twisted all over the place. That coursers pain and slows me down to much. I have no energy to do anything half the time. The doctors and the hospitals have given me all the help they can. I had lots of operations when I was 18 - 20 to fix my problems. There is nothing moor they can do. But still I walk with a limp and have a spin that's all messed up I hate my body to bits. Things well never change. Am 34 and my sex life has been none existent since I was 18. That in its self hurts the pride. Not that am the most sexually driven person in the world. My sex drive is like 0. But its not normal for someone my age. I just wont things the same has everyone else has. Things I know am never going to get. Am also short in height. Weaker then every guy I know physically. If only I could end this and come back in a body that's normal. I wont to enjoy life but there is always something that's stopping me. Things I can not control. If you know that all this was never going to change what would you do? Be honest. If your not allowed to say on here that you would end it then PM me your answer.